Testimony Name: _Seulbi Lee_
I became a Christian the day I was born. It was so wonderful to meet my elders and other children at church who were more or less my age. Teaching me the Lord’s Prayer and the Apostle’s Creed was one of my teachers’ lessons. My teachers taught me how to praise God through songs. I learned to respect God before eating a meal. For me, it was an introduction to God. During the weeks, months, and years, I attended church every Sunday and every Friday like it was a habit I had to get used to. Gradually, I grew up. I grew up mentally and physically, but not spiritually. Although I had a basic understanding of the bible’s history, I didn’t understand the lessons it served to teach me.
This led me to question my connection with God. What will change simply by praying to God?
I have experienced things getting worse for me after trying to pray a lot. Was praying only going to be a false hope for me? I felt obliged to attend church. Forcing myself to believe. Made to obey God. Insisting on loving God. Despite spending countless hours praying and loving God, it still leaves my heart feeling numb and empty. I felt emotionless from all the stress and worry I had focused on my studies. Despite wanting to love God, I find the idea of loving God far from my mind. The distance between me and God is always wide. How am I supposed to fill that gap? Perhaps it’s because I’m not taking my relationship with God seriously. As a result, I decided to devote more time to loving God.
The last few years had not been easy. Everybody has struggled with stress, anxiety, heartbreak, or some other form of pain. Those journeys are filled with experiences, friendships, discoveries, and growth as well. It is impossible to make these years or life in general perfect and easy. If I had a chance, I wouldn’t change anything. The moments when I was confused, scared, fearful, and hurt would never be worth taking the “easy path.”
God uses different situations to mold, shape, and prepare us for a future that we are not fully prepared for. Sometimes we ask God to remove us from these situations, not realizing that he may be using this time to prepare us for something that we are not ready for yet. Every obstacle I faced led me to God. And without them, I don’t know where my faith would stand. If anyone is going through any hardships right now, you got this. You have God on your side. The struggle helps you to grow and makes you stronger, so accept and embrace each obstacle. Trust in God, regardless of the challenges. I would recommend to anyone who asks to know God to seek Him. Make the effort to get closer to Him. It is never too late to start.